solitude avenue

2010-07-07T21:24:00.003+08:00

i dunno if anyone still visits here...but in case anyone does, i hav alr move to:
http://solitudeavenue.wordpress.com (:

pls take note & relink IF u want to...tis space will be closed down soon...tyvm!

2010-05-30T22:34:00.006+08:00

MOVED!

this will be my last post here...

2010-05-29T00:39:00.002+08:00

I hope you choke on those words, I don’t think it’s even possible to swallow that much bullshit.

i hav decided to move...or rather i had alr moved...but its not opened yet...need more time to settle everything first...or maybe it will jus remain as a private blog...

2010-05-24T21:18:00.001+08:00

Sometimes, people really do feel like they don’t want to exist, like they want to curl up in a ball and hide from everyone else. They feel like life is caving in on them and they want to just go somewhere else and not feel anything at all. And I don’t think there’s anything wrong with that. And if you don’t know how it feels to feel this way, then you have no place to judge anyone who does.

2010-05-20T21:57:00.002+08:00

i think i lost the blogging vibes...lolx...i m tired of blogging abt my mundane life...and i m contemplating to move to a private blog...but well...contemplating...hahs...

2010-05-17T20:39:00.003+08:00

Let me tell you this: if you meet a loner, no matter what they tell you, it’s not because they enjoy solitude. It’s because they have tried to blend into the world before, and people continue to disappoint them.

2010-05-14T22:56:00.006+08:00

are things really changing or am i thinking too much? its as though everything is not de same anymore...its like i could literally feel de difference and its becoming more obvious tat things are not de same as before anymore...everything has been replaced and everything is constantly changing...n me?...i jus hav to be oblivious to every single thing...

friends, family, school...

i dunno if its jus me feeling tat everything is failing or wad...all i know is tat its jus too tiring...really too tiring for me...

2010-05-13T19:14:00.001+08:00

Things that break - be they bones, hearts, or promises - can be put back together but will never really be whole.

2010-05-06T18:45:00.003+08:00

alrights...i m back to update this space again...its getting so mundane n boring lah...hahs...but nonetheless...still some updates for ppl who r interested... (:

okays first up will be sunday...i finally hav no work n i went to ah ma hse! (: had my fave porridge n yu sheng as usual before going...heex...happy...

then on monday, school as per usual n then aft school was town...bought birthday presents n i bought a new tank from F21 plus royce chocolate in strawberry flavour n it was awesome! (:

tues was work...nth much to elaborate abt lah...

wed was suki buffet with hc...MENTAI MUSSELS & SALMON SASHIMI FTW! we had like dunno how many plates of them...it was a good breakfast + lunch + dinner...satisfied ttm...aft tat was shutter island with hui n hon...unexpected ending...LOL...but not too bad...next movie will be back up plan! (:

today was school again with 2 project meetings which ended at nowhere...

tmr will be de shuld-be-awesome-but-not-tat-awesome long friday... ): but aft school will be hitting town wif chiamin n chunyu...i jus realised their initials r both Cs...lolx...random...

sat will be jb wif HC!! like finally...we shuld hav went like 2weeks ago...but anws, i m very looking forward to it...

& then finally sunday will be working wif GF! :D

alright then...tat's all for today...i will come back with photos for de next post... (:

2010-05-01T16:09:00.002+08:00

alrights...so as mentioned on thur aft school, 7 of de 08girls went to marina barrage for a picnic...

before tat we went for some food shopping at tiong bahru...then otw to barrage, it started to drizzle n then rained for awhile...but aft tat de sun came back again...n i m sure we had much fun eating, playing monopoly deal n camwhoring... (:

some photos uploaded n de rest can be found in FB! :D

then ytd was de dinner wif FC peeps...we had an awesome dinner at tis italian restaurant at liang court...n de price is definitely affordable...but de dinner ytd was a treat from felicia...so thanks alot! (: photos not uploaded by joyce yet...so we shall wait patiently for it then...n de flu bug killed some of my mood...so sorry...

as for today, mr flu bug still refuses to leave...thus, de supposed to be movie outing was cancelled...n its a rest day at home wif tv n more tv...lolx...

can foresee tat de coming weeks will be busy wif work n projects...n tat's all for now then...

2010-04-29T23:21:00.006+08:00

i hav things to blog abt but i reckon tonight is jus not a good time to blog abt it...i hav way too much going through my mind now n i cant seem to be able to sort things out...i will be back soon...

everything is failing on me again...there r jus too many things which i cannot understand...which i need an explanation to but there is jus noone who will be able to give me tat explanation...aft everything tat i hav wasted, i hav so much insecurities, so much doubts, so much of everything negative...i dunno how i shuld comprehend all these things...even if i tried to be positive, i still hav such terrible nights where i fall back into hell again...i wan to be happy...not de plaster-on-fake-smile-n-try-to-convince-urself-tat-u-r-happy happy but de happiness tat comes from within...but seems like its jus too difficult...
& Life just goes on.

2010-04-29T21:02:00.001+08:00

You set yourself up for happiness or you set yourself up for sadness. Either way, it’s your doing.

2010-04-28T20:31:00.004+08:00

tis picture is so cute! (:

alrights...i realise i dun hav de habit of blogging everyday anymore...hahs...so tis will be another wordy post then...lolx...

on monday i met up wif hc aft school n we went for a fringe trim...as usual i always regret after trimming...but it will get better aft it grows out a bit...hahs...

on tues i met up wif hc n hl...n we had dinner at pizza hut...finally had my first try of de crunchy pizza which was great! (: next i will try de soft shell crab pasta....heex...then we caught de bounty hunter which is yet another awesome show...n i hav a feeling ever since i watched nine, all de other movies seem so awesome...LOL! i bet only hc understands...hahs...then aft tat was yami yogurt n then HSH...

today i went orchard wif de 08 girls...damages to de wallet again... ): but at least i m happy wif my buys...we walked for a good 5hrs...wif wanton mee, milk tea n a very colourful friendship band each! (:

tmr will be picnic at marina barrage wif de 08 girls again...fri will be a meet up wif FC peeps but hav not gotten any info abt it yet...will try to post up photos on de next post...bye! (:

2010-04-25T13:54:00.003+08:00

alrights...i haven blogged for days again...LOL! okays...so on wed aft de post ITP seminar, i received last min news tat i do not need to go work...thus, headed to bishan wif GF...walked ard trying to look for bags but to no avail...then next we headed to AMK hub...n i had my first try on de KOI bubble tea which was awesome... (:

on thurs...lessons ended at 12.20pm instead of 2...so i went shopping wif GF at bugis while waiting for de guys to arrive...more damages added to our wallet...hahs...so we shopped, bought a good amount of stuffs n sweets from candy man n finally met up wif wynn n qy...then next we went over to clarke quay n met up wif jh n xf...had bak kut teh at de opposite side of central...n then we had nth to do so we walked to chinatown n had KOI bubble tea again...hahs...then we walked all de way to tanjong pagar n HSH... (:

on fri i headed home aft school, left my laptop at home n headed to jp for dinner wif mummy...bought more of de corn removal thingy...n then we jus walked ard for awhile n headed home...

ytd, i met up wif HC n we caught ice kacang puppy love at suntec...before tat we had dinner at hot pot culture...n tis girl is so crazy abt jang geun suk man...we waited for 2 times camping at de back door of de rock...but too bad he jus didnt enter or came out from there...

today i finally can hav a good rest at home...LOL! but i miss my cute boy lee zhan qi! aww...probably i shuld visit him next week...heex... (:

2010-04-21T09:16:00.002+08:00

it's rare to see me blog so early in de morning eh...hahs...but I m damn bored as I m waiting for my laptop to be reformated...n my only entertainment is my itouch...lol...

alrights then...I shall blog abt ytd...so ytd school ended at 2pm cuz there is no ascm practical...so I headed to town wif GF! (: n we spent again...but I m super happy cuz I finally got my metal logo havainas!! hav been eyeing it for so long n finally I got it at 20% off using my sp card...awesome ttm! heex...then I also bought 2 studded bracelets which fitted me perfectly...hahs...

as for today...there is only 1 tutorial n aft tat would be de post itp talk...next will be town again wif GF before going for work at tien hsia...tmr will be bugis for more shopping! so de damage for us for these few days is totally HUGE! okays then...need to get back to my laptop now...bye!

2010-04-19T21:36:00.002+08:00

hello! first day of school went pretty well i guess...NVP was quite alright...though all r new faces but my group's ppl r not too bad...n luckily there's GF wif me...n we r so gona see each other every single day n we even took de same GEMS! awesome much...heex...

so i psycho-ed honlun to get mac for GF n i tis aftnoon...n de kind him really bought it for us...thanks a lot eh! (:

then aft school was jp...walk walk n hagen daaz...so overall today is
1st day being year 3 + nice ppl + new bag + start of everyday seeing GF except weekends where we dun work - some unexpected disaster = near to perfect day!

& i totally miss JOELLE TAN! n our usual T-M battle during ITP... :D see u soon!

2010-04-18T20:21:00.003+08:00

warning: LONG & LENGTHY POST AHEAD!

during ITP week 5 & 6...

5april...
caught when in rome wif hc at vivo! my kind of show n its nice! n tis girl bought polaroid n made me so tempted to get it too...lolx...then there was monga gala premier n we waited for like an hr plus jus to see ethan ruan...aft tat was HSH...

6april...
went home aft ITP...

7april...
went bugis for steamboat wif joelle n we ate alot! hahs...tat girl ate like alot of fishballs...aft tat we went over to bugis street for some shopping...n as usual...i bought things home...fun day out... (:

8april...
dinner wif juniors n BFFs...a small meetup wif yeeleng since she came back for her term break...n now she is back in adelaide...take care eh... (: we had NYNY for dinner...supposingly shuld be our usual pizza hut...but it was too pack...so yea...

9april...
dinner wif joelle n zul at vivo's pasta mania...aft which was roaming ard at daiso n buying some stuffs in preparation for de end of ITP...

10&11april...
work at THLS...

12&13april...
buying gifts for de ppl in office...n writing all de cards n etc...

14april...
caught date night at vivo...another awesome show! laughed all de way from de start till de end...then dinner at harbour front's fc...

15april...
caught monga wif my usual movie companion again...hahs...not too bad lah...but de movie was so long we ended up going home at 12plus midnight...LOL!

16april...
last day of ITP...was pretty looking forward to it at de start of ITP...but wasnt feeling so at de end of de day...m so gona miss those ppl there who had been so nice to me...but luckily we will still get to meet up so no worries... :D
so we gave all de gifts n cards n of cuz took many photos...

joelle...who has always been there in de 6 weeks...n never fails to tell me alot of rubbish...LOL!
gloria...another fellow sp intern...also a very funny person... (:
michael...de super funny "uncle" who entertains me every morning...hahs...
tony...de look like 25 but is actually 38 years old uncle...hahs...
li wei...who is married at de age of 22...
joanne...de ah lian look alike...lolx...
auntie neneng...de very positive person who made a huge difference in my life n she definitely taught me alot... (:
joyce...someone who helped us alot n always help us to buy lunch...
janelle, editha, jalyn...from de accounting side...n as usual...all r very friendly...
aini...my supervisor for this entire ITP...a very nice person who treats us very good...
felicia...very nice n friendly n gives us useful lessons... :D
claude...de guy who likes to stand at de same side of de photo as me...thus explains tis photo...lolx...
stevanus...a very quiet guy who also helps us buy lunch...
tint...de anti-vegetable guy...hahs...n de deepest impression was when he ate fish n chips right aft he recover from his fever n still having spre throat...lolx...
ben...de uncle who is always guilty abt pushing de trolley over my toes...
bardri...funny guy who keeps singing MJ's songs n always de same old line...hahs...
finally a group photo of some of us...

n there is still de 2 directors, evelyn, raymond n belle whom we didnt manage to take photos wif...so here i wanna thank everyone of them who made my ITP an enjoyable one...thank you all very much! (:

ended ITP at abt 7 n then headed to town...had late dinner n headed to heeren...bought a NUM bag which was a freaking good deal! too bad it ended...LOL! but de sad thing is de colours r all so limited...
aft which was charles & keith for a new wallet...n in tat few hrs abt $130 flew away...LOL! but still, i m very contented wif both loots which i brought home...heex...

17april...
work at THLS...n due to de WS came too early we had nth much to do at de end of de day...

n for today, we had not much to do so it was more of a colouring session for de decorations in THLS...n colour pencils jus sucks man...

n so tmr is back to school again...feeling quite neutral abt it except for de new venture module where de class is split up according to de fyp group...cuz i jus simply hate to hav de stupid intro at de start of de lesson...zzz...

alrights then...finally cleared everything which i needed to...n hopefully i hav de motivation to blog daily so tat its not so tedious...LOL! bye...

2010-04-12T22:15:00.003+08:00

opps...i realised i haven been blogging...cuz i m ultra busy ttm! tis past week is jus ITP, work, outings, more ITP, more work n more outings...

sorry i wun be back to blog abt all those events anytime soon cuz i dun hav de time to do so...probably i will come back next week then...

meanwhile...

tues: preparing for post ITP stuffs...

wed: date night! (:

thur: outing wif joelle...

fri: booked...

sat: work...

sun: work...

n ITP ends on fri while school will reopen on monday...sian ttm! n GEMS is another headache...though i hav been looking forward to end of ITP but i will definitely miss de ppl...alrights then,,,bye for now! (:

It's okay to let yourself be happy because you never know how fleeting that happiness might be.

2010-04-03T20:47:00.004+08:00

i jus realised i haven blogged for almost a week alr...lolx...so i shall start my long story again all de way from monday...hahs...

so on monday, 29mar...ITP as usual...then i met up wif hui at jp n finally caught how to train ur dragon...awesome show! (:

tues i cant rmb wad i did...LOL! i tink i went home...hahs...

wed i met up wif BFFs n hc gave us presents which she brought back from taiwan! n i got quite a few more spongebob stuffs...thanks alot! :D we had kfc for dinner then hang ard for awhile n headed home...n happy belated 19th to chua jie heng! (:

thur, april fools day...a short meet up wif hon lun to help him in choosing gift...LOL! then aft tat was HSH for dinner...

fri is de main highlight of de week...slacked de whole morning away...then out at abt 2plus to carry out de plans for de birthday celebration for jh n GF...went over to jp to collect things before heading over to vivo to meet up wif wynn, xf n qy...bought more things n waited for yr, jh, ky to come...aft which bought carls jr n subway n then headed to our next destination, HENDERSON WAVE! de journey was taxing but it was definitely fun!

then we had our dinner n then it was sing birthday song n cut cake time...LOL! then de best part came...it started raining...luckily de 4 girls had umbrellas...so we left there without much trouble...back to vivo n wanted to catch a movie but to no avail...so we headed to iluma to try our luck...

hav shows at iluma but we didnt wan to miss de last train back...thus it was slacking at coffee bean...n HSH at 11plus...reached home at abt 12plus n by then i was alr quite dead...n happy belated 20th birthday lim aishu! :D

sat which is today...totally reluctant to wake up for ITP...in de end i woke up half an hr later than usual...wasnt late but forgot to bring my 'tap tap'...LOL! luckily i met joelle at de traffic light...today was kinda slack...n ended up we spent half of de time deciding wad to do next week...conclusion is steamboat n shopping! :D n de week aft would be movies... (:

aft tat headed down to tien hsia...n i had to carry mr flu bug everywhere today...damn cui ttm! totally sian...n ended up being so slow in doing things...tmr will be tien hsia again...n there is alot of things to do...n tis week, another 7 day week...

few photos taken in office out of boredom...

inside joke...LOL!

gloria...another fellow dba student... (:

alrights...i guess next week i wun be blogging much also...so...
monday: movie wif my movie companion...YEO HUI CHING! (:
tuesday: free...
wednesday: steamboat n shopping wif joelle...
thursday: free...
friday: dinner wif fellow interns...
saturday: tien hsia...
sunday: ah ma hse...n its been very long since i last went to ah ma hse...

alrights then...i shall end here for now...will try to come back wif more photos... (:

Happiness is not a matter of good fortune or worldly possessions. It’s a mental attitude. It comes from appreciating what we have, instead of being miserable about what we don’t have. It’s so simple—yet so hard for the human mind to comprehend.

2010-03-28T21:46:00.004+08:00

hello! i m back to blog...actually my posts r all quite boring since i m doing almost de same things everyday...

so ytd as usual i had 3hrs of ITP n then to tien hsia...n i finally saw GF! first time we nvr see each other for so long eh...LOL...aft work we went walking ard jp trying to find de no footwear signs for ashley...but to no avail...we ended up at faceshop where we got $133 worth of products...n we love de good service from de ppl at faceshop...they totally gives us all info needed... (:

as for today, its tien hsia again wif GF...busy day but we gossipped alot...hahs...n there is tis little boy who is damn cute! lolx...

alrights then...time to rest n prepare myself for tmr! (:

"Karma is a bitch, and you’ll get yours."
tis is such a nice phrase...lolx...

2010-03-26T22:17:00.002+08:00

ytd was jus like any other typical day where i had to write tons of membership cards n address...super tiring...n ytd was damn funny...hahs...nvr failed to be entertained every single morning...LOL...aft work i met up wif mummy to get ingredients so tat i could fix breakfast for my family n lunch for myself...HSH n slept at 9pm...LOL!!

today was ultra busy...first i woke up at 5.30am jus to prepare food...then i headed for work...early in de morning i had to go to de post office to get stamps...aft i come back, i had to go to de warehouse to help wif de price tagging...it was fun though...cuz de guy there r damn amusing...hahs...nvr fails to make me laugh like mad... (: i still prefer working in de warehouse...though it means more things to do but also means tat time pass faster... :D

tmr will be work till 12noon...then thls till 6.30pm...sunday will be thls from 8.45am-6.30pm...which means tis week is a seven day week for me...but still i enjoy myself n i m definitely very happy despite being so busy... (:

becuz no expectations = no pain... (:

2010-03-24T22:05:00.004+08:00

back to blog again! (:

ytd's ITP was fun ttm! had a good time laughing all thanks to joelle...LOL...she can practically link everything to .... LOL! n now i m in trouble all thanks to her...not literally trouble trouble...but wells...inside thing...hahs...so aft work ytd i headed to bugis wif part of 08 for dinner...had some QQ noodle hse noodles which sucked...zzz...

today we met up again aft work...initial plan was to catch a movie...but due to unforeseen circumstances, we ended up slacking at macs...but still fun! (: n thanks timothy for de mouse n carrying my bag...hahs...chiamin no need scared n jealous...no scandal... =P

tat's all i hav to say i guess...bye! (:

I think of life itself now as a wonderful play that I’ve written for myself, and so my purpose is to have the utmost fun playing my part.

2010-03-22T22:14:00.004+08:00

alrights koh shi hui, i m here to blog liao...seems like u r de only one coming...LOL! so i blog for u to read k...see i so good...heex... (:

i dunno where shuld i start blogging from actually...hmmm...i tink i need to start from mar8 but i cant rmb exactly wad happened...LOL...only tink i rmb is it was de first day of ITP n i was late when meeting up wif joelle...sorry girl!

mar 9...due to the supervisor mentioning tat my kappa shoes were too casual, i decided to wear smth else...which i had alr mentioned in one of de earlier post...so i shall skip tat...those who dunno wad i m talking abt...tat's jus too bad...LOL! so i had to buy another new pair of shoes...then was dinner at empire state wif 08...fun time complaining abt ITP...hahs...

mar 10...freaking poured early in de morning...n again i mentioned tis b4 in de earlier post...

mar 11...i caught cop out wif BFFs...again, mentioned...n i hav to emphasize again tat its a great show! (:

mar 12 & 13 mentioned...scroll down to de last post if u r interested...

a photo taken on mar 12... (:

mar 14...farewell dinner wif lasse...before tat headed to party world wif GF, QY n Bukit...then we waited for them to come from de zoo...n we had kim gary for dinner...aft which was to de roof top for a game called 'camp'...losers forfeited...photo below...fun time yet again! (:

GF & i at party world...seems like ages since i saw u!! jia you for tis week of hell...n see u on sun!! :D
group photo aft dinner...
2 person in front doing de forfeit...hahs...

mar 15...from paris wif love wif BFFs at vivo...not bad i would say...n wad did we eat huh?...i cant rmb...LOL...

mar 16...i met up wif XF n wynn to get back my laptop...n we had dinner over at city hall at some thai cuisine place which wynn recommended...

mar 17...i tink i caught NINE...which was a totally crap show...like totally...worst movie ever for this year...

mar 18...caught Nodame wif dearest BFFs...yes! been long since we had such frequet outings...loves! (:

mar 19...i wore my killer heels to work n damn suay out of all de days i had to go to de warehouse to seal up products...stood for half day...but i enjoyed working in de warehouse wif de malay aunty becuz her words r very motivating! (: then aft work i met up wif QY n bukit over at city hall...before tat i bought a slippers to change out of my killer heels...ate over at yoshinoya...n HSH at 8plus...

mar 20...ITP until 12noon...packaging is fun ttm! (: then over to tien hsia to work...so many new comers...hahs...as usual work till 6.30pm n HSH...

mar 21...some praying sessions for my maternal grandparents for qing ming jie...woke up as early as 6am...tired...then aft tat was shopping wif mummy at bugis...of cuz i didnt come back empty handed...paid for a new denim skirt n dress...while mummy bought me a bag n a dress... (: HSH at 4plus...n here comes de best part...i wanted to hav a small nap...so i slept at 6pm...n i actually slept all de way till tis morning...which means i had abt 13hrs of sleep...satisfied ttm! :D

mar 22 which is today, usual database typing for almost de whole day...until de end then we had a new job to do...n things r getting better at ITP...more mingling ard esp between de interns from sp n rp...outings soon... (: aft work i met up wif hui over at jp n we caught kidnapper...next movie will be how to train ur dragon! :D

tmr will be dinner wif 08 over at bugis... (:

alrights...tis is such a lengthy post...i shall end here for now...bye!

Now you can feel all the knots in your stomach start to untie, and suddenly it’s not so hard to say you’re alright.

2010-03-18T00:14:00.002+08:00

I will be neglecting my blog for awhile...sorry but I m either too busy or too tired...hahs...but everyday was well spent was de most awesome ppl... (: my lappy is back but I hav no time to use it yet...reason? pls refer to my Twitter at de left side...LOL!

so for now it's time to sleep...I will do a mass update wif photos I dunno when...most prolly weekends or not since I might be working aft ITP on sat...bye!

2010-03-15T23:35:00.002+08:00

jus WTF is wrong wif ppl nowadays? like seriously one moment they say smth n de next moment they contradicts themself...I m jus freaking pissed...stop making all those useless empty promises when u obviously will not be able to achieve them...u shuld know it more clearly than anyone else does...becuz a leopard nvr changes it's spots...ever...no matter how hard they try...

I jus needed to rant...I will be back tmr wif a proper post...

2010-03-13T23:13:00.002+08:00

hello ppl! so ytd aft work ended, I met up wif de usuals at city hall... (: we had so much fun laughing n eating...in short it's jus fab like always...heex...so we were gossipping n talking abt everything n anything...HSH at 11plus pm...by de time I reached home, it is alr past midnight...

as for today, I had to go for ITP for 3hrs...sad ttm! then I knocked off at 12pm n headed to city hall again...had my lunch at pizza hut while waiting for GF to reach...then we went over to suntec for de IT show...it was freaking pack lah...we used like 1hr to walk 1 storey...bought another couple case for our itouch but in different colours... :D n bought thumbdrives too...n finally we were done wif everything we need n left...

next stop was yami yogurt while waiting for bukit chua...hahs...then we ended up slacking at de corner playing twister on itouch...LOL...aft which was dinner at tis caferteria or smth de...sucked ttm! then we proceeded to walked ard suntec...HSH at abt 10pm...

n tmr will be k wif de usuals! aft tat will be de 2nd gathering for both de 02s for a farewell dinner for de 2 Finland ppl we made in school... (:

anw, my lappy will be back soon...so bear wif my pictureless posts for a while more yea...hav a good night! (:

2010-03-11T22:27:00.002+08:00

during ITP, 1 day at work felt like forever...I did like freaking much of stuffs in 1 day...but de happy thing is I m still able to make time for other activities... (:

so ytd morning poured like mad n I was totally drenched by de time I reach office...n I hav super nice supervisor who gave me a shirt to change while my blouse was left to dry...nice ppl totally makes my day...

for today, I caught cop out wif my usual movie companion, hc plus hon lun...n hc n I r alr planning de movies we r gona watch during these few weeks! nice! many movies coming out...but 1 week takes like forever to pass...n I shopped again n bought back a long top for near $30...opps...

tmr will probably be meeting de usuals again... :D sat will be work in de morning n then aft tat free...but hc not free...so it will probably be a rest day at home...unless anyone wans to date me...lol...as for sunday, everything has not been confirmed...so I will update on tat again...

alrights...I shall end my ranting here n blog a more proper post when my baby(laptop) comes back...heex...bye!

2010-03-09T23:19:00.002+08:00

I m here only for a short update...n jus in case u ppl r wondering y I m not as active in fb or not blogging much, it's cuz I lent my laptop to liew xian feng for 1 week... (:

alrights...so itp is quite okay...except tat need work on sat...everthing is quite manageable n there's many nice ppl...ytd aft work I met up wif GF n jie heng to shop...aft tat was ice crem! :D those who r my fb frens shuld hav seen my status last night...hahs...as for today, I met up wif parts of 08 for dinner at iluma's empire state...hsh at 9.30pm...

oh n I need to mention tat today I gei kiang go wear a long time nvr wear shoe...n it failed on me even before I got on de train...made me waste money buy super glue n a new pair of shoes...zzz...okays then...it's quite troublesome to blog wif my itouch...so bye for now...I will be back soon! (:

2010-03-07T23:36:00.005+08:00

today as usual for a normal sunday, i went ah ma hse in de morning...then i left at abt 3.45pm n met up wif BFFs at jp...bought tickets for being human at 7pm...then had our dinner at Fig & Olive... (:

walked ard aft tat n i bought de heart prints stockings! at $6 now instead of de previous $9...cheap thrills...heex...n we saw dai yang tian at ntuc for some events on coffee...hahs...photo at my FB...but i only took 2...LOL! then it was time for de movie...hilarious ttm! i like... :D then aft movie it was HSH...

ITP is starting tmr...omg...i m so not ready for it yet...freaking nervous...ahhh!! jus pray hard tat everything will go smoothly tmr... (:

& you, i m starting to get disappointed by ur actions...pls take note tat ppl will get tired of all these things one day...one day they will get so pissed they will no longer be there 24/7 anymore...jus becuz u wan to concentrate on smth doesnt mean u need to neglect all other things...

Have you ever noticed that the more special you treat someone, the more that someone takes you for granted?

2010-03-06T23:57:00.004+08:00

alrights...back to edit this post... (:

so i met up wif hc at 12.30pm...n she accompanied me to look for my ITP place...n its really quite ulu...hahs...wadever it is at least now i know i wun get lost on de 1st day...jus hope tat i wun be late...lolx...

then we bused down to commonwealth...n trained down to bugis...bought drinks n went over to iluma...bought tickets for alice in wonderland n waited for honlun to arrive...then i spent on a new watch, 2 new tops n a new black jacket...

then we bought some snacks n headed for our movie... (: not too bad i guess...aft which was dinner at some new jap place in de foodcourt...food wasnt too bad...love de salmon! hahs...impromtu decision to head down to clark quay...slacked there till abt 10pm or so...then HSH...n i spent abt $80 in total...omg...hahs...

now for some photos... (:
korean BBQ wif hc...

at clark quay...

Sometimes there is nothing to be said. Sometimes nothing should be said. I just want to find someone who won’t run away. Someone to look me in the eyes and tell me it’s ok that things don’t always go right. That this is how life works, and how it will always work. That it’s not going to be easy. Today, tomorrow, the next day, but it will somehow get better.

2010-03-05T23:41:00.003+08:00

so as mentioned, today was work...n it was rather good i guess...hahs...its nice to see those kids smiling at me, telling me where they bought their shoes from n they r jus super cute! (: n it definitely made my day...

so tmr i will be making a trip down to my ITP place to ensure tat i wun get lost on monday...hahs...then aft tat will be alice in wonderland at iluma...n probably some shopping at bugis... :D of cuz my company for de day would be hc again!

sunday will be a BFFs gathering at hui's...steamboat...yea again...i dunno how many steamboat i had for this year alr...lolx...but still, looking forward to seeing them... :D

alrights...i shall watch 1 episode of 下一站, 幸福 n then go to sleep alr...looking forward to another awesome day tmr...bye!

Did you know that the heart has no pain receptors? So the next time someone breaks you heart, move on. Your pain is just an illusion, a temporary psychological disturbance that you have to overcome. In short, it’s all in the mind.

2010-03-03T23:08:00.004+08:00

yeah!! finally exams r all over...feels super relieved now...but still a bit worried abt ITP...hahs...well, i shall leave tat to next week then...LOL...

now its time to enjoy myselfs before i start becoming a workaholic... (: today will be a rest day at home watching 下一站, 幸福...awesome show...

tmr will be work...sat n sun will be some outings n ah ma hse i guess...alrights then...actually there is nth much i need to say alr...so enjoy urselves before ITP ppl! :D

今天是一个新的开始...不该留的我通通都会把它丢掉...该忘的我会尽量的把它忘掉...虽然不会是一件那么简单的事，但我相信我还是可以过得很好...因为我已经尽力了...该做的都做到了所以一点遗憾也没有...唯一后悔的就是自己总是太相信别人，带给了自己很多的麻烦...可是这次一切都会不一样了...因为这次我学聪明了... (:

现在的我只想每天能开开心心的过日子...其它的我不会去想...
因为我相信该来的终就会来...

2010-03-02T22:29:00.004+08:00

today was shopping n movie again wif hc...awesome much as usual... (:

so we caught hot summer days today...n i bought a tank top n a new leggings... :D happy much...heex...i m enjoying life at de wrong timing...but as wad hc says, tmr i hav to start a war wif my notes again...i jus hav to endure for awhile more then!

alrights then...i guess i will end here for now...n my next post will most probably be on thur... (:

The difficulties of life are intended to make us better, not bitter.

2010-03-01T22:42:00.008+08:00

hello ppl!

since i m left with de last paper n i hav 2 full days to study for it, i shall take a self-declared break today... (:

so basically a summary of wad happened for these times which i didnt blog would be:

school to meet LO went pretty well...got to know another girl attached to de same company as me n she seems like a pretty friendly person...n most importantly, LO was great too...but de sad thing is i need to wear formal...
FM & MR paper wasnt as bad as wad i was expecting...but TEP was a total disaster!
work was as usual...n aft tat was last day of CNY at aunt's hse...n i gained more money for my bank in 1hr30mins time... (:
PDWM paper today was i-dun-hav-any-comments...i did everything necessary but de problem is i dunno if its correct...well then i jus hav to hope for de best...
f-ing pissed by some ppl's actions...like freaking think damn highly of themselves when i dun even think they hav de right to do anything at all...not everybody is dumb okay...hates it when de bad tries to act noble! zzz...

so today aft PDWM i met up wif hc...n we trained down to kallang for korean BBQ...not too bad lah...hahs...we ate alot! n it wasnt too ex either...then at abt 6pm we trained back to jp...at 7pm we caught dear john...n its a must watch show!! imo of cuz...i tink it was way better than jus awesome...hahs...next movies will be being human & alice in wonderland! (:

then aft movies we had deserts at ji de chi...n aft tat was roaming ard jp n there is alot of sales going on...shopping tmr wif dear hc again! :D then acc her to fairprice to buy smth n then HSH...

so as mentioned above i m left wif de last paper...which is smth to be very happy abt... :D n then my whole of march till mid april will be ITP n work...n of cuz not forgetting some outings too...

looking forward to a pretty awesome life...probably becuz i learned to be much more contented wif wad i hav...n i tink i hav everything in my life now tat i hav ever wanted...every one ard me who appreciates n accepts me for who i m...tyvm!! of cuz i dun hav to mention names becuz u ppl know who exactly u r... (:

well then, i guess tat's all for now...i will be back soon!

somewhere along the way, you became my comfort zone. (:

2010-02-21T23:21:00.006+08:00

LAST POST BEFORE I GO ON A HIATUS! [for abt 2 weeks or so] (:

okays...so ytd n today as usual was relative's hse till like 9plus pm...which means i hav yet to study for my EST...O-M-G! blame it on de study break being de same week as cny week... ): its jus plain stupid...but still i had lots of fun so its jus fair tat i go mugging jus for 2weeks...yes...hopefully my determination dun fail on me...LOL!

as usual stupidly looking forward to aft exams when it haven even started...hahs...oh n i haven mentioned my ITP is at fusion cosmetics n its at some ulu place at redhill...dunno whether i shuld be happy or wad...hahs...but its still sian as ITP burned out my whole holidays... ):

alrights then...so de schedule for tis 2 weeks will be...
22feb - school to meet LO...n some misc stuffs to settle aft tat...
23feb - FM paper...
25feb - MR paper...
26feb - TEP paper...
28feb - work...
1mar - PDWM paper...
4mar - QA paper...
5mar - work...
6-7mar - outings wif hc... (:
8mar-17apr - ITP...

now for a few photos...

n at de same time, aft this 2 weeks...i m gona let go of everything...everything screwed up in my life...i m gona start anew n make my life a better one...
so tis shall be de last post of my screwed up life...n i wan to say everything which i had always wanted to...since de break up, things had always been weighing me down...i very much wanted to forget everything...but then everytime i try to somebody jus points it out to me again...i admit tat there were times tat i truely felt happy...but i also sacrificed alot in this r/s...more than wad i shuld...but i really need to be thankful tat i was being ditched...becuz if i didnt, i would not hav realised there were so many amazing ppl in my life who cares for me n loves me...esp BFFs n GF who nvr failed to be there...n u, who came to talk to me encouraging me despite him being in ur group but u stood on my side...simply becuz u know me well enough...thank you very much...i also had many many countless outings wif de most awesome ppl ever...those who nvr fails to make me laugh alot...u guys know who u r...i dun need a bf...jus these ppl will do... (: but all in all, i believe tat this break up is going to benefit me for sure...becuz i no longer hav to put up wif anything...yes nth...i can do wadever i wan as long as i like it...
though i m still traumatised by this whole incident n hav totally no faith in love anymore...but come to think of it, it wasnt love which failed me, its de person...i will definitely take some time before i can walk out of this whole thing but i definitely will...this last 2 weeks i will do my best in my exams n aft tat i will enjoy myself who no worries...no nth...jus a new me... (:
feels great to rant out everything once n for all...n this shall br it...i will no longer give anyone a chance to affect me...

Just when you think it can’t get any worse, it can. But then again, when you think it can’t get any better, it can.

2010-02-20T11:02:00.002+08:00

photos post... (:

first will be photos from de visit to hc's hse...

next will be photos from ytd's visit to jieheng's hse...

Her life was beginning to make sense again, although she couldn’t say she was enjoying it. But her mind was clear, and her heart was not constantly as heavy. She knew that in time, she’d survive it. She had done it before and would again. Eventually the heart repairs.

2010-02-20T00:43:00.002+08:00

alrights...so as mentioned in de previous post, I caught my 4th movie of de week wif hc! (: a fregging funny cny show imo...hahs...then aft de show we roamed ard jp for awhile wif totally nowhere to go...but still thanks for de company yea... :D

I left jp at 5pm n trained down to yew tee to meet de usuals... (: as usual we hav to spend some time waiting for everyone to arrive...lol...finally everyone reached n we headed to jieheng's hse...thanks a lot to jh's mum for making dinner for us...then we played blackjack n slacked n took photos till abt 11.15pm n then hsh...as usual it was a fun session wif quality time spent! :D

okays...now it's time to sleep n de photos will come in tmr cuz I m blogging wif my itouch now...nights ppl! (:

2010-02-18T20:39:00.002+08:00

so i caught 72 tenants of prosperity today...another awesome show...had 3 awesome shows for tis week alr...de 4th one tmr! hopefully... (: loves movie marathon but also means a big hole in my pocket...LOL!

This is why you should never, ever get your hopes up. This is why you should see the glass as half empty. So when the whole thing spills, you aren’t as devastated.

2010-02-18T13:42:00.002+08:00

tis time round i really m giving it a rest...not gona care not gona do anything more than wad i shuld anymore...

i jus need to feel appreciated...so tat i know everything i m doing is not going down de drain...so tat i can feel my effort being paid off...as simple n at de same time as hard as tat...

so y shuld i continue doing so much n giving myself hell?...

2010-02-17T22:43:00.002+08:00

first of all...sorry but i m still feeling a tad lazy to upload de photos...opps...but by now those who hav added me in FB shuld probably had seen de photos alr...so yah...

today i slacked half de day at home watching 海派甜心...aft tat was out to jp at abt 5pm to meet hc...n i bought de paul frank silicon case for my itouch which is identical to GF's! (: then i had pepper lunch for dinner...

at 6.45pm, we caught valentine's day...awesome show! i like or maybe its jus my type of show... :D aft tat was walking ard jp for awhile n then walked home...

tmr will be watching 72 Tenants of Prosperity wif hc yet again...n maybe All's Well Ends Well Too 2010 on fri?...n aft tat will be jieheng's hse...hahs...i had alr watch 2 movies for 2 consective days...satisfied ttm! all thanks to hc for de company... (:

After some time, I guess we just get sick of caring, and we're too hurt to fight.

2010-02-16T22:53:00.002+08:00

okays so i caught percy jackson & the lightning thief n i reached home at like 2.30am...LOL...nice show! (: tmr will be catching valentine's day wif hc! :D

so as mentioned in de previous post...my relatives came today n also i went to hc's hse...n its de same old routine stuffs tat i m doing everyday...i hav photos to post but i m lazy to resize them...so tmr perhaps...hahs...

exam week is coming n i hav yet to start studying...goodness...y does study week hav to fall on cny week...tis jus sucks man...

i was wrong...i still couldnt escape from de terrible experience...y do all of u hav to keep going on abt de same topic?...keep asking even though i said no alr...it sure is irritating me to de max...

It doesn’t make sense to let go of something you had for so long, but it also doesn’t make sense to hold on when nothing’s there.

2010-02-15T21:37:00.002+08:00

tis morning we missed out de lion dance becuz we woke up late...ahhh...by de time we reached it has alr ended... ):

so it was just slacking there for awhile n then it was time to head to 2nd uncle's hse...as usual it was a eating, playing session...hahs...

nth much for today as it was HSH at 6plus...now i m waiting for time to pass so tat i can meet BFFs for movie, Percy Jackson And The Lightning Thief at 11.40pm... (: n i so wanna watch valentine's day...

only a few photos taken today so i m kinda lazy to upload it now...shall wait for tmr then...hopefully more photos will be taken as tmr would be my hse-->hc's hse-->2nd aunt's hse which is de same blk as mine... :D

Sometimes, someone says something really small; And, it just fits into that empty space in your heart.

2010-02-14T21:02:00.003+08:00

so today is de first day of cny!

usual routine to visit de je temple early in de morning...aft which was grandma hse...basically food, gambling, more food, more gambling & photo taking sums up today...it was a good day definitely... (:

but pretty bored tat i m home so early...hahs...n i m dying to watch alot of movies...those who r free pls date me out okay...i will love u much...LOL!! jus kidding...but at de same time i actually hav not much time to spare since de exams r like so N.E.A.R... ):

tmr will be watching lion dance in de morning & then 2nd uncle's hse... :D

love de dress...
nephew(:

fave photo of de day...

niece(:
my family & my dearest ah ma... :D
family!

everything finally came to light today...i no longer hav to feel guilty over lying because i no longer need to do so anymore...n i finally do not need to endure de pain when they keep asking because they will no longer ask anymore...i feel like i hav put a very big burden down...

It’s sweet when someone knows every detail about you. Not because you keep on reminding them, but because they pay attention.

2010-02-13T21:57:00.006+08:00

alright...lets date back to fri which was ytd...

fri, 12feb10...
i was supposed to wake up at 3am to study but guess wad i actually snoozed from 3am all de way till 8am...i m amazed...LOL!

met up wif hc at 12noon n headed to jp...finally got my ipod touch... (: n of cuz not forgetting my cny heels...a killer one...but i like! :D

then aft tat was back home to do some last min studying before heading to school at 4pm...so de uccd test was at 5pm n i totally dun wan to talk abt it...i tink de teacher is mad...opps... =X

aft de test was meeting up wif wynn[our jay chou(inside joke)] in school then jieheng at jp n we had dinner at crystal jade...loves xiao long baos ttm! (: aft tat wynn left while de 3 of us headed to safra wanting to k...but things didnt go as planned...so we ended up walking back to jp n then walking over to prime to get ingredients for supper...

sat, 13feb10...
fetched qiyong from pioneer station at abt 12am?...then walked over to GF's hse...slacked, checked ITP postings, watched tv...then jaryl n lingyee came...we had 'pizza' n mushroom soup for supper while watching ghosts of girlfriends past...then aft tat was mall cop...

xianfeng arrived at abt 5am plus...not long aft, all of them fell asleep...lol...then left qy n me watching shows n laughing...so i watched tv de entire night...LOL! qy left at abt 8.30am...then at 9plus am de rest of us decided to head home...wif GF bringing them to de mrt station while i took jaryl's bike...thanks for de ride home... (:

reached home, prepared, bath n cabbed down to grandma hse...had my lunch...where i suddely felt sad...sad tat there is a person less in de reunion dinner tis year...i miss my grandpa... ):
then i took a short nap from like 12-3pm...

finally we could start eating at abt 6pm...then aft tat was pre-cny-blackjack-session...hahs...took some photos n HSH at 8.30pm...

my new love! :D
i only rmb-ed to take photo aft eating...which explains de empty plates...
bro...
mummy...
aunt...
cousin...
daddy&mummy!

tmr is de first day of cny n also valentine's day...nth good nor bad since i had alr spent 17 years of valentine's day being single...tmr shall be de 18th...but at least there's still my family tmr... (:

okays...so now is back to last min packing, painting my nails n removing all de price tags from my new clothes... :D

After a break up, you usually get to a point where you stop feeling sorry for yourself. You realize no one’s going to save you, so you have to save yourself. You turn your life around, not knowing where you’re going, just knowing that you’ll do anything; anything to be happy again.

2010-02-11T22:26:00.005+08:00

alright i shall jus do a quick update...
so today is school->queensway->anchor point->ikea->queensway->HSH...

had QA lab test today...sucked ttm! i tink its such a goner lor...there goes my A alr lah...zzz...aft tat was mac wif 08 girls for lunch n back to school for FM lecture...

aft lecture, headed to queensway wif GF & jieheng...walked ard, jh bought his shoes & then xianfeng came...had laksa as our dinner...then continued walking ard for awhile...

headed to anchor point next...walked ard n had dessert at some random place which i hav no idea wad shop is tat...as usual xf nvr fails to do stunts...LOL! then it was ikea for hotdog bun...hahs...we sure as hell can eat alot... :D

lastly was back to queensway as xf wans to look at de crumpler bag...n finally it was HSH...despite de UCCD test tmr, i m glad we went out today cuz as usual it was fun ttm n i nvr fail to go home feeling happy...[of cuz, minus all de craps from u ppl abt ... LOL!]

finally de pay came in today...n if nth goes wrong, i will be able to get my cny shoes n my ipod touch tmr wif de company of hc! (:

okays then...it was supposed to be a quick update but it ended up being so lengthy...n now its time to get back to my 'dearest' UCCD before i can enjoy de k singing tmr n de ton-ing at GF's hse... :D

ENDURE!!

I just don’t know if I wanna do it anymore - get close to somebody so they can leave again.

2010-02-10T23:03:00.002+08:00

today was work from 2pm - 9.30pm...n i had a very terrible dessert from lot 1...LOL! okays damn random...hahs...

i haven studied for tmr's QM for windows plus fri's UCCD test i hav only read through like half n haven started memorising...zzz...tat's bad...n it means tonight i need to burn midnight oil...sian ttm!

n i haven buy my shoes...n de freaking pay is still not in yet...grrr...bye!

Anyone can easily walk away from somebody else. Nobody is forced to stay; we all have choices. But the real test is if someone would rather stay with you, even though walking away would be so much easier.

2010-02-09T18:34:00.001+08:00

It’s all in the past. And it really shouldn’t matter. What’s really unfair is that there’s nothing you can do about it. The past will always come back to haunt you.

2010-02-08T10:46:00.006+08:00

It’s like getting a tooth pulled out; after the dentist pulls it out you’re relieved. But how many times does your tongue run itself over the spot where the tooth once was? Probably a hundred times a day. Just cause it was hurting you doesn’t mean you don’t notice it’s absence. It leaves a gap and sometimes, you feel yourself missing it. It’s going to take awhile, but it takes time. Should you have kept the tooth? NO! It was causing you pain. Pulling the tooth was the right decision, but it’s going to hurt."

2010-02-07T20:48:00.002+08:00

okays...so ytd i slacked half de day away at home...n i went out at abt 4.45pm...met up wif de blssco ppl at de interchange then we took 192 to de steamboat place...

then we started eating n crapping n laughing n getting all scared by de dogs there...LOL!! then we left de place at abt 9plus pm...

headed to pioneer mall wif hc n had milo mcflurry...nice...then walked over to central coffee shop to meet up wif de rest again...slacked there till abt 11pm...then we walked home together...

de steamboat dinner wasnt tat great but de company as usual was hilarious ttm! (:

my usual job...peeling prawns for them...
hc...

vil...
hc being bullied by them...hahs...
group photos...

today was work early in de morning...n i had yami yogurt! peach n fruitty pebbles! :D UCCD & QA tests r coming...sian ttm...n i hav yet to buy my cny shoes...n my pay has been delayed...zzz...okays then...i shall end here n wait for my mummy to buy dinner back for me...n by de time she come back i tink it would be supper alr...LOL...

It seems like the simplest concept. Just push everyone away, and you’ll never get hurt. However, the simplest isn’t always the most effective.

2010-02-06T12:43:00.004+08:00

HAPPY ADVANCED BIRTHDAY TO YIRUI! (:

alrights...as i hav mentioned in de previous post which had already been deleted, i had an AWESOME day or should i say night out wif de ex02s n de current02s... (:

so we ended lessons n then me, GF, xj n wynn went over to bugis first in search of presents for yirui...finally managed to get smth aft like a good 1hr plus...hahs...then we met up wif xf, ly n jh before heading over to tian tian steamboat to meet up wif de ppl of de current02s... (:

settled down, ate, made a hell lot of noise n we even got complained...hahs...then we celebrated yirui's birthday n took photos...

aft steamboat was ji de chi for desserts...then it was HSH at abt 10pm?...yea i tink so...hahs...n so ytd was definitely a good experience n de atmosphere was just great! :D

ex02s...

lastly 2 group photos of de 02s... (:

later will be steamboat AGAIN wif blssco ppl...

Fate is like a strange, unpopular restaurant filled with odd little waiters who bring you things you never asked for and don’t always like.

2010-02-04T20:07:00.004+08:00

but at the smae tmie, the ionry is taht I dno't wnat smeonoe bcusaee I'm sarced of the edning. I'm sarced to flal in lvoe aiagn, open up cplomteey, and tehn jsut get suht out. It's not a cplomteey irariatonl faer. You gvie yuor haret aawy and evlntuealy yuo'll get it bcak. But taht one ltitle peice is alywas gonig to be misinsg. Evroenye you gvie yuor haret aawy to tkaes a ltitle peice of it wtih him, and at the end of it all, what's left?

And I have no idea just what is it that I want.

2010-02-03T20:40:00.004+08:00

headed to orchard aft school wif 08 girls...spent another sum of money on accessories...my 4th one in 3 days...omg...i need to stop spending on unnecessary stuffs n get my shoes asap...hahs...

i got nth better to say alr...my life is getting so boring n mundane... ): everyone is so busy n tired...including me...i seriously need to relax...LOL!! okay lah...crap...bye bye!

i miss having a shoulder to lean on, having a hand to hold n somebody who will always be there for me...but i know being alone is better than being with someone who is half there or doesnt wan to be there...at de same time i m scared to experience de same things again...i wan to be optimistic abt things but i jus cant...
I’m just trying to find my place.

2010-02-02T21:44:00.003+08:00

today's UCCD class was damn pathetic wif only 3 ppl who went...obviously i m not one of them...LOL...

so i had mac again wif GF...usual routine on tues! (: aft tat was lessons blah blah blah...n aft school was lai lai for milk tea again...n then we walked ard n at 6plus accompanied GF to get dinner for her family then HSH...

my posts r getting so boring...even i dun feel like reading it...LOL!! tmr will be school at 9am for MR project... -.-

I feel like a jigsaw puzzle missing a piece and I'm not even sure what the picture should be.

2010-02-01T10:38:00.003+08:00

ytd was salon in de morning to fix my black roots...n i got a new hair colour...hahs...n i chopped off some of my fringe too...then it was ah ma hse --> west coast plaza --> ah ma hse --> home --> jp...

so aft doing my hair i went over to ah ma hse wif mummy n had late lunch over there...aft which was west coast plaza wif my aunts as they wanna get smth...n there is a freaking nice bread shop there...de breads r so tasty...imo tat is...hahs...

then headed back to ah ma hse n aft tat was home to leave things n then jp wif bro n mummy...bro got his new year clothes while i finally bought my bag...tis means tat i m left wif shoes n some accessories before i m all done for new year shopping... (:

today i skipped UCCD lecture...it jus totally bores me out lor...plus de lecturer had de slides changed n we dun even know wad to fill in for de notes...so ppl, those who took UCCD last sem kindly pass me ur notes...lol...

okay so now i m waiting for lunch n then aft tat will be heading to school at 1pm for MR...bye!!

I could never understand how it was so easy for you, but always so damn hard for me.

2010-01-30T15:03:00.002+08:00

ytd was:
school --> lai lai for milk tea --> home --> dover --> movie at cine --> botak jones --> gloria jeans --> HSH

went to school as per normal except tat i was actually early...then lessons as usual n aft school was jp for lai lai milk tea wif chiamin & lingquan...aft which was slacking at jp wif chiamin n then home for dinner...

aft dinner i went over to dover to meet jieheng & xianfeng...then we trained down to somerset where we met up wif wynn & mingxian at cine...GF came late thus we went in for de movie first, leaving her ticket wif de person...caught new york i love u where half of de time i m not too sure wad they were showing...LOL...n i wanna watch TOOTH FAIRY!! hahs...

so aft de movie, we headed over to scape park for botak jones...then we ate n talked n aft tat was back to cine for gloria jeans coffee...of cuz i didnt drink lah...those who know me shuld know i dun drink coffee... (:

then we sat there n chit chat till like 11pm or so n took train home...reached home at abt 12am...

today morning i went to school for MR project...we managed to come up wif all de 15 questions n left school at abt 1pm...

It’s those moments when you hang around in a room full of friends, where you gasp for breath between each laugh. It’s those moments where you get high off just breathing in so deep, you feel your lungs getting cold. For a second, that split second, you don’t care. You don’t care about school, about parents, about money, about rules, or broken hearts. Who you care about are the people sitting next to you. Cause it’s all we really need, isn’t it? Those people next to you. Yeah, the ones who make you feel invincible, even at your weakest points.

2010-01-28T21:38:00.004+08:00

today was school as usual n during de 2 hr break we went ikea for lunch...n aft such a long time i finally had my fave cold water prawns...n i freaking spent like $10 on food today...tat is not good...hahs...

aft tat was back for lesson n aft school was MR project...yes again...sian to de max...not too efficient today i guess...since we r like all stuck...but wells, school again on sat lor...haiiz...

but i m looking forward to tmr! movie wif de usuals... (:

photos from ytd's class outing...
GF!
christabel.

chiamin & lingquan.
pretty candid imo..
08 girls minus chun yu..
guo ting.

DBA08!

ytd i had a conversation wif someone in msn n it totally affected me much...though it left me in tears n i dunno if u will see tis but here i wanna say a big thank you becuz it made me feel much better...made me realise tat not everyone there sees me as a bad person...n i really appreciate ur effort to come n talk to me aft so long...i m glad tat our friendship remained unchanged all along...n tat aft 6 years u really know me quite well...or maybe cuz my 'acting' jus sucks...hahs...but its really good to know tat there is another person out there who cares abt me...thanks for de encouragement! (:

Sometimes it hurts more to smile in front of everyone, than to cry alone.

2010-01-27T19:21:00.002+08:00

HAPPY [BELATED] 18TH BIRTHDAY KAI FEN!!

so on 23jan, hui n hon bought cake n came to my hse...then we left for hc's hse at abt 10plus pm...we started planning how we shuld trick de birthday girl down...n in de end our plan actually failed...jus like wad hc said in her blog n FB...she chose sleep over us...awww...how sad...we took so much effort to plan...

so at 11.45pm we had no choice but to tell her our plan since she totally ignored us...hahs...so at 12am sharp we helped her celebrate her birthday...then it was camwhoring n HSH...reached home at 1am...dead tired...

so now will be de photos on tat day...

birthday girl...

BFFs!! (:

next will be photos aft ytd's pizza hut...at de park near jp...

love tis photo! :D

LOL @ honlun...

today was school for 2hrs...then pizza hut at jp again wif 08 plus our PTM n FM teacher...aft tat was walkingard jp wif de girls plus timothy n arthoven...then HSH at 5.30pm...photos will be up aft GF uploads them...till then... (:

Theres only so many times you can allow someone to let you down before you can’t handle the disappointments anymore. When things change, people change. There’s a point in life where you get tired of chasing everyone trying to fix things, but it’s not giving up, you’ve got to do what’s right for you, even if it hurts.

2010-01-26T23:07:00.002+08:00

today was school at 7.30am n presentation at 8am...scared de hell out of me...but still, i m glad tat its finally over...n also FM test was alright i guess...other than de theory parts as usual...but still at least i can hav a break for a tiny little while now...finally able to sleep earlier tonight...n to those usuals who r still choing-ing projects...jia you! (:

so aft FM i headed back to jp n met up wif BFFs at pizza hut...then there was de usual crapping n stuffs n aft tat was camwhoring at de nearby park...HSH at abt 9pm...then kf n hc came my hse to get smth...

tmr is class outing, thur MR?...spells sian again...haiiz...alright then...i guess tat's all for today...

Only time will determine when and how you’re going to move on. Sure, it might not be right away like you want it to be but eventually one day you’ll wake up and realize that somewhere along the way that piercing feeling you’ve always felt inside your chest faded and went away while you were too busy living life to notice.

2010-01-25T16:58:00.004+08:00

today is staying in school to see if i can improve on de UCCD slides plus studying FM wif GF...tmr is a very taxing day... ): presentation at 8am n FM ca at 5.10pm...aft tat will be pizza hut wif BFFs for kf's birthday...yet to blog abt her surprise...but i hav no time now so yea...be patient...

wed will be class outing probably at pizza hut again n aft tat might be tooth fairy wif de usuals or maybe on fri...i will most probably hav not much time to blog...so all those posts might be belated...

My heart is your piñata.

2010-01-24T20:04:00.002+08:00

HAPPY BIRTHDAY KAIFEN!!
i m seriously broke...
needs to study FM...
improve on de UCCD ppt...
thinking of switching to wordpress...shuld i or shuld i not?...hmmm...
tmr is monday again...spells sian...
not in de mood to blog anymore...byebye...

everything is so not okay...

On the outside, you know you’re not that same naive kid anymore. You’ve been through too much too fast, but deep down, at your core, there will always be a part of you that rejects reality.

2010-01-23T17:16:00.006+08:00

sometimes, tat kind of attitude really pisses me off...i really dunno wad i hav to say or wad i can say becuz everything i say = crap at de end...so i might as well jus shut up...

seriously, everything is so not smooth i really wan to give up on everything...truth is i failed terribly in everything...be it friend, gf, daughter or even jus a human being...its always liddat...even if i really did my best...in de end it seems like i hav done nth at all...i really wan to do smth but everything i set my mind on it there is bound to be smth which happens next n makes me think twice...it jus sucks...

I hate this because I’m really not okay. All day long I help out my family, my friends, you know whenever they need me. I smile and laugh and pretend to enjoy my day. But I’m honestly such a mess. Some nights lying in bed, I just cry. No one’s around to hear. I can’t take it sometimes. I hate talking about my problems, I’d rather just help someone else. I hate going on like this, like I’m gonna be okay, like things are eventually gonna be okay. Well it’s been so long now and they haven’t gotten better. They’ve gotten worse. I know the saying, that it always gets worse before it gets better, but when does the better part start? Seriously? How much more worse is it gonna get? I hate this. I just want it to stop. I just wanna be okay. I love my family and friends so much and I don’t want them to know I’m such a wreck. I don’t want them to know I’m falling apart. I want their help and comfort so bad but at the same time I want them to think I’m just fine. I don’t know what to do. I just wanna be okay.

2010-01-23T13:23:00.003+08:00

photos post... (:

19jan...in class wif GF!

camwhoring at qy's hse!

20jan...at airport to send yl off...

my bro actually volunteered to make lunch for me! hahs...thus, i m blogging while he is doing de cooking...LOL...i hav nth else to blog for today...bye then! (:

I wish I was a little kid again. I want someone to take care of me. I want someone to clean up my messes and remind me what’s right from wrong. I want to be awed at, even if what I’m doing isn’t that cute. I want to be yelled at before I make the same mistakes again and I want to be held in someone else’s arms while I cry my heart out.

2010-01-22T22:27:00.004+08:00

TGIF!!

tis 2 weeks was totally disastrous man...i tink i m abt to die...zzz...i can practically fall asleep anywhere...LOL!! i m not kidding...n listening to de tutors talking is like lullaby...i bet GF will understand...hahs...

so today aft school was jp wif GF n then to hc's hse to slack...aft tat was HSH at abt 6.30pm...tmr will be slacking n home n maybe try to study FM?...hopefully i hav de motivation n determination...hahs...

~~sunday will be ah ma hse...finally aft 2 weeks i can get to eat my favourite breakfast...~~i actually forgot i was supposed to be working on sunday! lol...most importantly is aft 2 weeks i finally dun hav to go school on a sunday...

next week will be packed wif MR project. FM ca, class outing, tooth fairy?...n i got so many movies which i wanna watch but i got freaking no time...sian...okays then...de photos which i promised on my previous post would be up by tmr... (:

I don’t need someone to make my heart whole. Instead, I need someone who will never ever let me feel broken.

2010-01-21T22:40:00.005+08:00

okays...i was supposed to have blogged all these earlier but i m so freaking busy everyday i dun even hav enough time to sleep...zzz...so i shall try to clear everything up now...

first up will be monday, 18jan...farewell dinner for yeeleng & her advance birthday...
i had school as per normal...n aft school was taking of photos for uccd project...thanks bryan n jason for ur great help... (:

then i left school at abt 6pm n met up wif hui at dover mrt station...trained back to jp n went mac to meet up wif hc n some juniors to finish up de present for yeeleng...then impromtu decision to go icing room to buy a cake so tat we can celebrate her advance bdae...

then it was time to meet up wif her...we had pizza hut as usual...our favourite place...LOL...had our dinner then asked xuan to bring yl to de toilet while we brought out de cake...surprised her n i hope she had fun... (: slacked till abt 9.30pm n went over to fairprice extra wif hc where i bought sweets n we had a sudden idea of giving yl another surprise... :D

okays then...a few photos...

decorating the cake...
end product...
looking at her present...
group photo...

xian yues... (:
seniors...

lastly, this is dedicated to yl though i m not sure if she will get to read it...hahs...

girl do take good care of urself okay... (: n jia you in ur studies over there...pls be happy n see u in 2 months time! we will miss u much...love you...

next up will be tues, 19jan...was supposed to hav uccd presentation but smth went wrong n ended up my group wore formal for nth...n de heels i wore hurts like hell!! so GF n i decided to skip TEP n went home to change...then we met up again n went back to school for tutorial n de last lecture...aft tat was slacking while waiting for xf, wynn, qy n yirui...

finally everyone came n we set off for adam foodcourt...had a nice meal over there as usual wif lots of laughter...they nvr fail to make everyone laugh like mad...hahs...

then we wanted to bus down to AMK hub n when we were abt to reach, we decided to head to qy's hse instead...camwhored, watched tv, webcamed at his hse all de way till 10pm...then it was HSH...

few random photos taken in school...

my crazy GF! :D
my fave photo for now...

LOL @ xf...hahs...

okay next up wed, 20jan...sending yl off...
i didnt go to school becuz i was too freaking tired...but in de end i woke up at 9+ anws...zzz...slacked then left for jp wif my mum...was supposed to go to bugis but ended up didnt go cuz i was feeling lazy...opps...

met up wif hc n xuan at abt 4.30pm...bought some stuffs then hc n i went for manicure... (: aft tat was airport for popyes n then to terminal 1...reached there n took some photos...n not long aft yl arrived...then it was chatting, camwhoring n de same process went on till 9.30pm before she had to leave...

definitely gona miss her but well, 2 months is fast aint it... (: photos will be up maybe tmr or wad bahx...fb is being such a bitch i cannot access n get de photos...zzz...

as for today, its school as per normal n i feel really really drained out by now...tmr will be uccd report deadline which is a good news...but there is still presentation on tues n also FM ca...spells sian...plus today another project came in...crazy or wad...zzz...

n i had been going to school for a consecutive of 11days alr...last week was a seven day week for me...n almost everyday is staying back in school for project...i hope all these ends soon...

n my fringe is pretty screwed up...n i need to re-dye my hair soon...i will get it done before new year...okays tat's random...n tis is de end then...tis is a super long post n i guess i m gona end here now...tmr will be another long day n finally i can sleep a bit earlier today...bye!

Some mornings I wake up and I don't think I'll make it.

2010-01-17T23:14:00.002+08:00

first up will be some photos from de cca open hse on sat... (:

okays...so today was school again for projects...seven days of school jus sucks to de max! zzz...shall endure for awhile more...

still hav some uccd to be done before i can be free...tmr will be dinner wif some blssco mates... (: tis week will be quite fulfilling wif de various activities coming up...i will definitely blog abt them wif photos! till then...

What’s the use of worrying? It never was worth while, so pack up your troubles in your old kit-bag, and smile, smile, smile.

2010-01-16T23:41:00.005+08:00

y m i always waiting n ended up waiting for nth?...damn it...

so today was blss for cca open hse n i freaking woke up at 7am on a sat...so basically we jus watch de performance, slack, eat lollipops n took photos...LOL...but it was good gathering... (: then was frontier cc>jp for lunch>school for project>HSH...

i m damn damn tired n lazy to elaborate...n i still got alot of things to be done for uccd n i totally hav no motivation to start on it...like seriously...all these is jus crap lah...zzz...waste my time...n guess wad...tmr will be school again...yes! for 2 consecutive weeks...i need more time n tues pls dun come so soon...

i m not feeling good at all n today is jus one of de days when i feel tat my emotions r taking over me again...sometimes i feel freaking pissed n i jus wanna be left alone...not becuz i like being alone but i dun wan to 'offend' any ppl...

Each day gets more dreadful and each day I wish I wasn’t here just a little more than the day before.

2010-01-15T23:57:00.002+08:00

today was school as usual...n aft school was CNY shopping at orchard wif hc! (:

finally cleared 2 of de projects tis week...left wif de last one n de most things to be completed...sian...

okays so i met hc in school n we trained down to somerset...wanted to get de mango jeans but it was way too long for me...so we decided to continue walking ard first...we had ice cream...very long ago since i ate it...then aft tat was taka for pretzel! love it ttm... (:

then we walked over to FEP n we bought an identical dress together...hahs...so i m almost done wif my new year shopping...got all de necessary clothes alr...need to get a new bag n probably some accessories...hahs...as for de shoes i m still thinking if i shuld buy since i haven worn de one i bought at genting...LOL...shall see how then...

okays then...i need to start saving so that i can buy more stuffs...lol...n i can finally get my ipod touch next month! like finally...n tis means 1 new year resolution down... :D

I keep wondering where I went wrong. Maybe I didn’t go wrong at all. Maybe things are going to turn out the way they’re meant to and nothing’s going to stop them. Some things are easy to control and work out. But some things you just have to let go. So instead of asking why it turned out like this, I should accept that it is how it is. There is no way to change it, but I can love it. I want to love it.

2010-01-14T22:56:00.002+08:00

surprisingly, tis morning i was actually early for school...LOL...n in de end i had to wait outside de lecture hall on my own for damn long...hahs...

aft lecture was clementi for botak jones wif 08 girls n arthoven...then we went back for lessons as usual n aft tat was work...

i seriously dunno wad to blog alr lah...n i need to get back to my 'dearest' UCCD! zzz...

I’m ready to be the girl I used to be. The one who never cried, never got mad about dumb things. And the one girl who never cared about being in love.

2010-01-13T10:02:00.003+08:00

i was so freaking busy ytd i actually did not on my com for de whole day...amazingly amazing...cuz using de com has alr become a habit eveyday! LOL...

okay so ytd was project in school yet again...n aft tat was jp for yami yogurt wif GF! hahs...i guess it has become our favourite snack now...lolx...

n today GF n i came school as early as 9am thinking of getting de new SP singlet from moberly but it only opens at 11am...n we were totally sian-ed...hahs...

n now is project time again...zzz...i m procrastinating again...lolx...okays then...aft school will be work which will be ending at 9.30pm...so no blogging tonoight i guess...okays then...bye!

It took me some time to realize this, but sometimes, what you want isn't always what you get, but in the end what you get is so much better than what you wanted.

2010-01-11T22:30:00.002+08:00

today was school as usual n projects aft tat...left school only at abt 8.45pm...tired ttm! ): still there r many things to be completed...n tmr will be a very very long day at school as there is projects discussion again...zzz...

well, i m dead beat n i guess tat's all for today...LOL!

Some people, no matter how hard they try they can never find someone right for them. Because they never realize that the problem lies with themselves and in turn, they blame every failed relationship on the other party. And its just too bad for the other party if they have given their all.

2010-01-10T20:30:00.002+08:00

so today was school in de morning...supposed to meet at 10am n surprisingly i actually reached at abt 9.30am...LOL...to think i m always late for school yet i can be early today...hahs...

okays...so i dunno if i shuld say de discussion went smoothly or wad...managed to come up wif all de necessary stuffs...gona consult teacher tmr n if all is fine, we can start formulating de 'report' on tues alr...LOL!

then tmr will be submission of PDWM report n aft school will be UCCD project discussion...sian ttm! zzz...but well, there is nth i can do also...

oh n fri will be shopping wif hc! hopefully tis time everything go as planned n nth crops up eh...hahs...okays then...bye!

No matter how strong we hold on, still there comes a time that suddenly we fall.

2010-01-09T22:20:00.002+08:00

today was work for de whole day...busy day...but still...was nice working wif GF! (: we had yami yogurt aft lunch...

knocked off at abt 6.45pm...had out dinner at subway...then accompanied her to get dinner for her family...n aft tat was HSH...

tmr will be school for MR project...freaking reluctant to go...could hav gone to work wif GF tmr as well...but then...no choice lor...since we got so many projects n it will bevery difficult for me to meet up wif my group mates next week as i hav to work on wed n thur till 9.30pm...

tis sem is sure gona be hell n i need to survive through it n then aft which will be ITP...pretty suckish eh...no holidays...zzz...n before we even talk abt ITP there is still exams before tat...

n on a random note, i hav more resolutions...or i shuld say is jus some places which i wanna go tis year...lets see...i wan to visit de zoo, night safari, underwater world...wad else...hmmm...oh i m dying to go to de exhibit at science center...but apparently, everyone tinks i got nth better to do...LOL...

so yea...i guess tat's all i hav to say...got to prepare for tmr's project discussion... ):

No one deserves to be treated like crap. So even if you love someone with all you've got, with every fiber of your being and with so much passion that it hurts to even think about it, you need to forget what you want and remember what you deserve.

2010-01-08T17:39:00.003+08:00

ytd...school as per normal...went to sumo hse for lunch since we had a 2hr break...then back to school for lessons n aft tat was orchard wif wynn, qiyong n GF...met mingxian in de train n he joined us as well...first stop we went to 313's uni qlo...qiyong bought his jeans while GF n i saw a dress which we liked...sadly dun hav our size for de black one...

so we went over to ION's uni qlo cuz we had previously asked de sales person at 313 to call n ask if there was de size we wanted at ION...n they said yes...but we went over n couldnt find...zzz...coincidentally saw xianfeng wif his frens...then we went over to wheel lock place as GF wanted to buy her crumpler camera bag...looked ard n again no black...so we had to go over to heeren's garage...

before going to heeren, we had dinner...met up wif xf n his frens at FEP n we had chicken rice for dinner...aft tat was drinks n then walked down taka where mx bought royce chocolates...then was down to heeren n by tat time was alr nearing 9pm...garage was abt to close but GF still managed to get her camera bag...but sadly it didnt fit...so de poor girl had to make another trip down today...sad tat i cant accompany her...n also sorry to hc for being unable to go on de shopping trip...

today was jus plain school day n home aft tat...now everything is abt projects n i cannot believe tat i even hav to go school on a sunday for projects...zzz...

oh n i also got back results of MST...both good n bad...i scored A for 1 of it n de other as expected failed...n i m still thinking if i shuld go for de retest...hmmm...n thanks kheeying for de belated birthday present... (:

okay then...i dunno y tis post is so wordy...hahs...but well, i will jus end here then...n looking forward to work tmr...finally wif GF!! :D

I’m selfish, impatient, and a little insecure. I make mistakes, I am out of control, and at times hard to handle. But if you can’t handle me at me worst, then you sure as hell don’t deserve me at my best.

2010-01-06T14:22:00.003+08:00

i m supposed to be at home now since school ends at 1pm on wed...but i hav to wait till 3pm for de ITP talk which will last till 5pm... ): n de new term has started for 3days n there is only one word to describe: BORING!!

n projects deadlines r reaching but seems like nth much has been done...next week will most probably be filled wif projects n work...oh...n EST is actually 1 week aft CNY...how great...zzz...okays then...i m actually jus trying to kill some time...LOL...

Sometimes we tend to be in despair when the person we love leaves us, but the truth is, it’s not our loss, but theirs. For they left the only person who wouldn’t give up on them.

2010-01-05T17:47:00.001+08:00

I’ve always followed my heart instead of my head. I’ve always jumped, always took that leap of faith into the unknown, having no idea of what the outcome of my actions would be. But now, now it’s so very clear. I need to stop following my heart. I just need to stop, before I do anything at all. I need to stop and think about it, about what I am about to do. I need to think about whether it is right or it is wrong. Because when you follow your heart, you lose track of what’s right and what’s wrong, and it tears you apart.

2010-01-04T18:35:00.002+08:00

today was de first day of school...n as usual it was jus plain old boring...zzz...i dunno wad else to blog so jus randomly tell all of u tat GF n i saw a freaking rat on our way home...LOL...n we got all panicky when some random ppl went to scare de rat n it ran all abt at a very fast speed...hahs...

school tmr at 8am!zzz...not excited at all...i m sure i will be late yet again...hahs...quite a few projects on hand waiting to be completed...n tutorials...n i will randomly end here...LOL...

You can say anything about me, but I am what I am, and that’s something you could never be.

2010-01-03T20:49:00.024+08:00

HAPPY 19TH TO MYSELF!! :D

okay so ytd was my 19th n i slacked half de day away at my uncle's hse playing blackjack...LOL...then at abt 5plus pm, my cousin sent me to vivo...was supposed to meet up wif GF for dinner...n then i happen to see xianfeng n wynn while i was 'waiting' for her...so i got suspicious...oh n while waiting i actually spent $23 in topshop...tis is bad...hahs...okay back to topic...

so at abt 6pm or so i received a call from GF asking me to meet her at de customer service counter...then she gave me a heart shape balloon wif my name n age on it...n thanks for de present u brought back from ur trip... (: hahs...said she wanted to go quick silver...so we went...n came out...walked a few steps n i saw qiyong n jieheng outside gv wif another 2 balloons...went up de escalator n there was xianfeng n wynn wif more balloons...LOL...by tat time i alr had 5 n i can sense tat everyone i walked past was looking at me...

okay here comes de climax...LOL...they said tat they wanted to go marche for dinner n then who knows when we walked near there suddenly i spotted many balloons at de top plus 3 more ppl...okay i dunno wad i shuld call tat place as but later when u all see de photos, u will know where i m talking abt... :D i tot de 3 person is from ex02s...but who knows i saw honlun armed wif dslr at de side...then i realised it was BFFs... (: okay lah...i will be damn heartless if i say i wasnt surprised...but i shuld say i was more touched for de effort put in...n i appreciates it ttm!♥

then i received a box of present full of spongebob stuffs n many many photos...love it! but sadly my camera cant fit into de pouch... ): then there was a cake...though i cannot blow candles or cut cake but i was still not spared from de cake facial...then GF, xf n i got into a 'fight' trying to smash cake at each other...n xf is damn violent! n my new dress got dirtied lah...finally we went to wash up n pack up...then took more photos before we headed for dinner...

dinner was steamboat at bei shang chuan...yes steamboat again...my 3rd one in 1 month...LOL...n by tis time i hav got 11 balloons...n it was damn pai seh to walk ard carrying them...dinner was as usual full of laughters...they nvr fail to leave me going home wif stomach cramps from laughing...hahs...BFFs had to leave earlier...then de rest of us slacked at starbucks...HSH at ard 11pm...n taking public transport wif balloons is not fun at all! LOL...

okay photos time! :D

me! n de box of present... (:

battling it out...LOL...

shihui(:

huiching(:

kaifen(:

BFFs!♥ n i realised i didnt take photo wif honlun...lol...

GF(:

xianfeng(:

wynn(:

qiyong(:

jieheng(:

02!♥

look at de 2 ppl behind me...LOL...

i tot it would be something simple but now i hav to say my 19th was a blast n i will rmb 02012010 till i die...i enjoyed myself n i honestly felt happy... :D tis is de first time tat 2 different groups of ppl in my life came together to celebrate my birthday... (: my 2009 was pretty screwed n hopefully tis will be a good start for de year ahead...n lastly i wanna say a big thank you to all de ppl mentioned above...love every single one of u!♥ n of cuz not forgetting those who wished me in fb or through sms...n all my relatives...thank you all very much! :D

birthday aside...school's starting tmr...spells B-O-R-I-N-G...zzz...but i m looking forward to fri! (: tis will be a very busy semester... ): okays then...time to fill up my spongebob planner wif all de various schedules...bye! (:

Twenty years from now, I am going to look back and remember that there were those few people who could turn every frown into a smile in a few simple words. Those people who lifted my head when I was losing faith in myself. The people who always knew what I was feeling by the look on my face. The few who accepted who I was when everyone else laughed in my face. Those people that accepted every decision I made believing that I’d make the right decisions. The few who knew who I really was. Those people that made the biggest difference in my life. The ones who were my strength through hard times. My best friends.♥

2010-01-01T20:20:00.002+08:00

alright...so today i caught alvin n de chipmunks 2...my type of show...LOL...n theo is freaking cute ttm! :D i had lunch at mos burger wif hc before we went to meet honlun...then we trained down to vivo n caught de show...aft tat was dinner at bk n HSH...a very short day...but i alr feel very tired...maybe its due to sleeping at 4am...hahs...no photos today...

okays...so de next thing will be de co camp...so i met up wif BFFs - hc n headed to school...hc was alr there...then we started slacking n watching movies...n not forgetting camwhoring... (: didnt sleep for de first night...

de next morning, i went home to take a shower n rest...kf tagged along...n ended up she slept instead of me...LOL...then was to her hse for her to put her stuffs n then back to blss again...went over to co room n chat...then was helping to 'pack' de water bombs...freaking funny when wenxuan broke de one wif soap in it...xi de n i ended up cleaning de floor wif de cleaners of blss looking at us...as i hav said...its as though they were supervising us...LOL...

then at night was BBQ...terence n xianglin came...then we went over to ava aft de BBQ to watch a video n 2012...de video brought back many memories...n everyone was screaming when their 'ugly' photos appeared...hahs...tat night was chatting wif de alumni(s) outside staffroom wif alot of laughters...n i enjoyed it alot...slept at 4am n then woke up at 7am...aft which was breakfast n co room...then hc's dad sent us home...i had much fun for de 3days... :D

i went home n slept for like another 2hrs n headed shopping at orchard wif mummy...of cuz i didnt came back empty handed...a few more stuffs to get n i m done wif my new year shopping... (:

n lastly as promised, a few photos for de steamboat at my hse ytd!

Do you know what’s the mark of people worth keeping for the rest of your life? It’s when you become impossible to deal with, yet they stay.

2010-01-01T00:40:00.003+08:00

HAPPY 2010!!

okays...i jus had a steamboat session with BFFs n countdown wif hc staying over at my hse...LOL...simple but nice! (: photos will be up wif co camp photos soon! :D

since its 2010 i guess i need some new year resolutions...

start saving for de ipod touch which i had been talking abt since eons ago...LOL...
hav more discipline when it comes to school work...
need to forget everything which is unpleasant in 2009...
be a better daughter n friend...

tat's all i can think of now...perhaps i will update it again...LOL...

You cannot go back in time, even if you wish it with every fiber of your being, your heart and soul, even if you think about it every day. Trust me. I know.

2009-12-31T13:04:00.004+08:00

i m back from co camp n i hav to say i hav ultimate fun there especially de chating session wif the alumni(s)... :D i m very lazy to resize de photos now so pls be patient...i will blog abt it soon! (:

n today is de last day of 2009...how fast...n i hav to say tis year was another year which i hav learnt alot...okay...time to jus round up de year i guess...

first of all...tis year we went into different options...but de amazing thing is...we(ex02s) actually became more bonded aft de 'split up'...of cuz by saying tis i dun mean every single one...jus de usuals...n i hav to say all de various outings ended wif happiness...for me tat is...n i hope everyone did enjoy themselves too...

then i went into 08...de girls are nice n as for de guys i dun tink i wan to comment much...LOL...n i need to say tat i m extremely thankful for meeting Aishu...she brought me lots of laughters in school...my favourite person in school... :D though i get abuse by her...LOL...u know i still love u much...n i know de 3years in poly is better n will be better wif her around[of cuz minus de abusing...LOL]... (:

n i also had my first clubbing experience since i turned 18 tis year...n there is also de first time i took de first train home...first time i went prawning...first time i walked all ard town in de middle of de night...n many more...all of which wif de most amazing ppl ever...

though i had fun tis year...i also had downs...n tis is for those who had been curious yet afraid to ask for fear tat i might break down...yes, i lost a relationship...n to tell de truth, sometimes i really dunno if i shuld tell ppl tat i m not affected by it or tat i m alr numbed to it...becuz i dun even know it myself...but wadever de case i guess its not important aft all...becuz wad i tot i could not do, i did...perhaps i had changed in one way or another but i m still me...

i also lost my grandfather...which was de worst thing which had happened tis year...but i know he will always be wif us...

n tis year i spent alot of money...n i really wan to thank my dearest mummy becuz she was the one paying for almost everything...i hav to admit tat i haven been too good to her...n i nvr fail to make her mad...but she was still there when i needed her...

i also secured a job n met both good n bad ppl there...but i still find working there not too bad n i m looking forward to working wif GF! LOL...

i can go on n on but i dun tink u ppl will be interested to know anyway...so yah...i tink all i still hav left is some ppl to thank...

- BFFs♥♥
i had a fulfiling holidays full of them...n it was a good one...i guess in some point of my life i had neglected them for de wrong things but i m glad that they r still here today...thanks for being there when i needed somebody...when i tot that i will be all alone...i hav many many things to say but those who knows me well enough will know tat i m not too good wif words for such things...so...jus know tat i love BFFs ttm! (:

- GF♥♥
lim aishu! thanks too for being there...n i know u haven been feeling good too...inferring from FB...hahs...but still i hope all will be fine for u...n u will always be tat cheerful girl...see u in 4days time... :D love you!

- Usual ex02s♥
thanks for those who makes all outing a memorable one wif all de craps n wads not...n also thanks to those who cared for me n were there wif their good listening ear...appreciates it very much!

- 08 girls♥
thanks for inviting me along wif u all for de various outings...i had fun... (: n not forgetting chiamin's "are u bored?...wan to hav heart to heart talk?..." LOL...

i guess tat's all...sorry if i accidentally left u out...opps...n an early happy new year to everyone reading tis...enjoy ur last day of 2009!

i need to get prepared to go out now...steamboat later at my hse n alvin n de chipmunks 2 tmr! bye!

I learned a lot this year. I learned that things don’t always turn out the way you planned, or the way you think they should. And I’ve learned that there are things that go wrong that don’t always get fixed or get put back together the way they were before. I’ve learned that some broken things stay broken, and I’ve learned that you can get through bad times and keep looking for better ones, as long as you have people who love you.

2009-12-28T11:36:00.001+08:00

And everyone’s wondering where she gets that smile from, when everything in her life is looking so downhill. And everyone’s wondering how she can be so happy, when it seems like her world is falling apart. And everyone’s wondering how she can keep on laughing, when she’s doing things against her own will.

2009-12-26T19:45:00.002+08:00

today was supposed to be projects n tutorials day wif fen at mac...but apparently we ended up talking...LOL...but it was a nice session as usual... (: but tis means i got more work to do tonight...goodness...school work always seems nvr ending...hahs...

oh n de going-out-everyday streak is still going on...n it will last till thurs! :D somebody ask me out on 1/1/10 n 3/1/10...LOL...then i would hav fully utilized tis whole holiday...hahs...okays then...actually tis post is kinda crap...but wadever...as long as i like it... (: till then...

In life you need one thing to survive. Simply the ability to realize shit happens. You step in it, accept it, get over it. And keep walking.

2009-12-25T20:49:00.008+08:00

i m back for more updates... (:
first up will be de photos for de previous post...

love tis photo taken by chia min (:

de 3 companies for de day... :D

next will be dated back to wed, 23dec09...met up wif hui n honlun at blcs...headed to bugis n had brunch at mac...then we went over to top one for singing session... (: hc joined us there as she was late...as usual...LOL...sang all de way till 6pm n had nasi lemak at QiJi...nice...

at top one wif hui...

BFFs (:

aft eating, we went over to iluma then bugis street n bugis junction...headed down to city hall at abt 8plus...slacked at de star bucks near butter factory...n then finally went over n we queued for a good 45mins b4 we can finally enter...had 4 glasses of different kinds of vodka n then we left at abt 1am...cuz it was freaking crowded...

at iluma's toilet...

star bucks...

then we walked over to marina square thinking of catching a movie...but none available...so we cabbed down to cine n caught a perfect getaway at 1.50am...crap show...zzz...tat night was a walking night...

aft de movie we walked from cine>taka>ion>tangs>heeren>plaza sing>bugis>city hall...three quarter through de walk, it started raining...luckily we were not drenched...jus a little wet...LOL...slacked at mac n then aft tat caught de first train at 5.54am back...went over to hc's hse again...settled down n slept at 7.30am...woke up at 12pm...

before de movie...in between esplanade n marina square...

24dec09...aft waking up at 12pm, had lunch...then bused over to jp n met up wif de 08girls...ntuc for ingredients n back to my hse for steamboat...as mentioned by chiamin at de tagboard, i guess we are all afraid to see balls of food...LOL...

ended de eating at abt 5plus then slacked n played monopoly deal...headed down to orchard wif them aft tat at abt 8pm...walked to FEP...some ate fried mars bar, some drank milk tea...then walked ard for awhile n then walked down to heeren...took a few photos n it was super duper ultra crowded...

then we walked down to plaza sing where chunyu's parents fetched us n drove us down to east coast park for supper...ate till abt 12plus am...which means we had our christmas count down there... (: then it was HSH...thanks cy's parents for de treat n de ride back... :D

at my hse, trying de 'ribbon hairstyle'...

in de train to orchard...

as for today, its christmas day! MERRY CHRISTMAS TO EVERYONE!! (: supposed to go shopping wif BFFs but apparently almost all is sick...but i still manage to meet up wif hui at abt 3pm...n guess wad...orchard for de 3rd consecutive day...hahs...basically we were jus window shopping n planning wad to buy...lolx...next wed will be another trip there wif mummy...

okays then we walked till we had nowhere to go n decided to head back home for dinner...m gona hav a good nights sleep tonight...like so finally... :D

n lastly, de remaining schedule... (:
26/12/09 - tutorials day wif fen...
27/12/09 - dim sum for grandma's birthday...
28/12/09 - co camp
29/12/09 - co camp
30/12/09 - co camp n shopping wif mummy...
31/12/09 - steamboat at my hse n stayover...
1/1/10 - alvin n de chipmunks 2 wif BFFs... (:
2/1/10 - my big day... (:
4/1/10 - school starts... ):

People say that love is blind, but I don't think so. I say that we ourselves are blind, by fooling ourselves into thinking that someone is the one, when it is quite obvious they're not.

2009-12-22T22:56:00.003+08:00

today i met up wif 08 girls n went shopping at FEP...bought a necklace n some presents... (: wanted to get de cotton on skirt which is like $20...but 313's cotton on only hav 1 size left n it is so freaking fitting i tink i cannot walk properly...hahs...so i saved money...

slacked ard at orchard till abt 4...then we walked down to plaza sing...accompanied chia min to go n see jay chou! hahs...stand there for a good 4hrs n only saw jay for like not even half an hr...hahs...chia min is a happy girl now...she can keep laughing...lolx...then we had dinner at mac at 8plus n then went into cotton on to see if de skirt i wanted was available...n they dun even hav it...great...saved money again...LOL...n then HSH at 9pm...

will upload de photos together with de photos which i will be taking tmr...so wait awhile eh...hahs...

Because you can’t keep giving someone everything if you get nothing in return.

2009-12-21T19:46:00.005+08:00

today was school for projects...managed to clear most of de research i guess...then aft tat was jp wif de girls... (: had lai lai milk tea n then slacked ard jp...glad to say i didnt spend on anything other than food...hahs...wanted to meet up wif hui n hon but they went home b4 i could go...LOL...

supposed to go out wif ex02s tmr but apparently not successful...so in order to make full use of my time, decided to go shopping wif 08girls...hopefully i dun spend too much...hopefully...LOL...okays then...photos for hui's 18th n picnic at marina barrage up on fb! (: will post de photos taken using hc's dslr aft she uploaded all of them in fb...bye!

Sometimes, you just have to accept the fact that all people think about is themselves. As long as they have fun, as long as they enjoy themselves, with or without you it doesn't matter. And that's when you realized how stupid you have been and it just shows clearly that you don't belong. So the best option is to leave. Leave for the sake of yourself.

2009-12-20T21:00:00.010+08:00

today was jus a simple day spent at my grandma's hse...n i love sundays cuz i can get to eat my favourite food in de morning! LOL...actually i hav got nth much to blog but i jus feel like blogging... (:

n i realized since de mst week ended i havent stayed at home for a single day yet...but i enjoyed every single day out! :D tmr will be projects in school n hopefully can make it in time to join BFFs to do tutorials together...

this is a very fulfilling holiday n i like! (: 2 more weeks b4 school starts...n de current schedule is:
21/12/09 - projects
22/12/09 - shopping wif 08 girls... (:
23/12/09 - k wif BFFs n butter fac at night...ton-ing n overnight at hc's hse...
24/12/09 - steamboat wif 08 girls at my hse...n orchard...
25/12/09 - shopping wif hui...
26/12/09 - tutorials day wif BFFs...
27/12/09 - dim sum for grandma's birthday...
28/12/09 - co camp
29/12/09 - co camp
30/12/09 - co camp n shopping wif mummy...
31/12/09 - BBQ n countdown at east coast park...
2/1/10 - my big day... (:
4/1/10 - school starts... ):

okays then i guess there is nth much to blog anymore for now...i will come back wif a lot of photos... :D

Never let go of hope. One day you will see that it all has finally come together. What you have always wished for has finally come to be. You will look back and laugh at what has passed and you will ask yourself…“How did I get through all of that?

2009-12-19T23:56:00.003+08:00

HAPPY 18th [belated] BIRTHDAY TO SHI HUI! (:

i will make everything short n sweet becuz i need to sleep soon...LOL...
back track to fri...knocked off at 9.30pm n met up wif de other 3 of them...n lucky us...we actually managed to surprise her...wif my brilliant idea...heex...

so in summary its...we bluffed her tat none of us is free to celebrate for her...then i meet her to giver her de present...aft she came down...de other 3 went up to her hse wif de help of her sis...then they hid in her room while i said tat i need to use washroom...n then we went up n i asked her to leave my bag in her room first...n we totally got her when she opened de door...hahs...okays then...photos... (:

birthday girl...
usual routine...

BFFs!

aft de celebration, hui decided to come n stayover at my hse...so tat we hav more time to prepare stuffs for de picnic...had a good chat while preparing... (: slept at 1.30am...

so today's plan was to hav a picnic at marina barrage...but before we even reached, it started raining...but we still enjoyed de food n de company... :D n in total we took like abt 700 photos...crazy to de max...though de weather sort of spoilt our plan...but we still had fun... (:

attempted to take de kind of photo in de previous post...but failed much...LOL...

finally a more proper one...

more photos will not be available at fb yet...becuz apparently there is some problems wif de bulk uploading n its too tedious to upload it 5 by 5...so all these first then...n look out for those which will be up on fb asap... (:
next wed will be k at top one n butter factory at night! any usuals wan to join us?...LOL...okays then...nights all!

You’re going to come across people in your life who will say all the right words at all the right times. But in the end, it’s always their actions you should judge them by. It’s actions, not words, that matter.

2009-12-17T18:43:00.003+08:00

genting trip had been posted...scroll down to de next post if u r interested... (:
16Dec09
met up wif hc at our hse vicinity...then we bused down to jpn met up wif hl...had our lunch at pizza hut... (:

aft tat we trained down to city halln went to raffles city for a walk...trying to find smth of cuz but to no avail...so we went over to marina square...n then nth again...so we decided to bus down to orchard...finally we got wad we were supposed to buy...n i spent $20 on a new shades n skirt...goodness...tis is not good...LOL...

love tis photo... :D

then hl left home for dinner...while hc n i continued slacking at orchard...we were so bored becuz we were only meeting my frens at 10pm...thus tis explains de following photo...hahs...went round taking photos of de reindeer...didnt upload all...visit my fb if u r interested... (:

favourite reindeer...

n finally it was near to 10pm...we walked all de way from orchard to plaza sing...surprisingly it wasnt tat far...trained down to clark quay n waited for xf n wynn...then we went over to arena to meet up wif doris n frens...finally settled down n photos time...

most of de ppl who went felt quite sian cuz arena was a bit boring as compared to butterfac imo...but aft de dance floor opened i tink it went pretty well...n then HSH at abt 3am...

ending wif a group photo...we took ages before we finally got it right...hahs...as usual de rest of de photos up on fb! :D

cabbed over to hc's hse...no photos from there onwwards cuz we were pretty much dead...lolx...finally slept at abt 5am...
tmr will be working again n sat will be picnic at marina barrage n to celebrate hui's belated birthday... (:

Never allow someone to be your priority while you’re just their option.

2009-12-17T13:16:00.003+08:00

GENTING TRIP!

okay there is far too much things i can mention so i will jus cut short n brief through everything...with photos along de way... (:

took de 9.30pm coach from bl...n we reached genting at abt 4am...left our bags at de lobby n then went to hav mac for breakfast...de food there r all freaking expensive...even mac...zzz...

on de way to mac...

then aft mac we were so bored we decided to take a walk around...n we walked all de way to de 'old' genting...along de way took more photos...hahs...

cousins n bro...
daddy, bro n me...
cousins...
ME! :D

and finally it was 8am...bought de unlimited rides ticket for all park n started playing...bumper car was fun...n de monorail freaking makes us wans to fall asleep...cuz its moving very slowly...n i really mean S-L-O-W...

random photo on one of de ride...

n then randomly a family photo aft showering... (:

♥

did my nails there too...

then on de second day...we took de cable car down n then switched to a 1hr bus ride to utama for shopping! i bought quite a number of stuffs all thanks to mummy... (:

while waiting for bus...

and aft tat i was so busy shopping i had no time to take more photos...LOL...

all de things i bought home n i had a hard time trying to lug all home...went wif 2 bags came back wif 4 n spent a total of 600+RM...mad love all de things i bought... :D

many many more photos at FB!

n i m currently still at hc's hse...jus woke up not long ago cuz we only reached back home at 3plus am...now waiting for kf to reach then will be heading out again...next post will be BFFs at pizza hut n orchard plus clubbing at arena! (:

2009-12-16T11:42:00.004+08:00

photos for de previous post...

i will only be blogging de genting trip tmr...cuz i will be busy today...for a secret mission n ~~powerhouse~~ arena n then stayover at hc's! (:

2009-12-11T22:42:00.003+08:00

MST is officially over! hahs...n so today was de last paper n of cuz its time to party aft tat...LOL...i m in an ultra good mood today so i m going to blog everything in detail! which means a long post... :D

so de paper ended at 10am...n we went to get our result for TEP project...aft which met up wif xianfeng, qiyong, shirley, sheryl, huiying, ling yee n one of their classmate...n we headed down to town...

settled our lunch at FEP's graffiti cafe...then next to ION as sheryl wants to get doughnuts...aft tat was roaming ard n then wynn n jaryl came...n i really wanna thank ling yee n jaryl becuz i felt so relieved aft talking to them... (: n of cuz those who were there [dearest babe n BFFs] for me but knowing my character they did not probe abt anything...okay back to topic...then was continue slacking till abt 3pm...

headed to de flea market at skate park...didnt shop lah...must start saving for all de activities during de holidays...LOL...so jus hang ard there n slack n chat wif some of them while de rest went to shop...aft abt 2hrs...we left n went cine for a walk...

impromptu decision to head to de airport to hav popeyes...cuz i was craving for it...hahs...so i went down wif ling yee, xf, wynn...at de same time we also sent mandy off for her trip to japan...n finally we need to thank all de 4 of us...LOL...thanks me for de idea of eating popeyes, thanks ling yee for de $50...thanks wynn for pushing xf...n thanks xf for i forgot wad eh...opps...is it for holding ling yee?...lolx...anw, its an inside 'joke'...hahs...

then finally we decided to head home aft a very very heavy meal...LOL...HSH at 10pm...enjoyed today TTM!♥

working tmr from 9am-6.30pm...spells sian...but genting at night will keep me going! hahs...talking abt tat...i hav yet to pack...will be back on tues night i tink...n wed will be clubbing wif de usuals...fri working n sat for BFFs i guess...

okays then...tis is a super duper lengthy post...n i will only be posting up de photos taken today aft i come back from genting alright...so ppl pls be patient okay...hahs...okays then...i m off for now...take care ppl! (:

Be who you are and say what you feel because those who mind don’t matter and those who matter don’t mind.

2009-12-10T17:43:00.002+08:00

yay! so de MST week is coming to an end wif 1 last paper left tmr...n my brain is feeling reluctant to function...LOL...but well, still gotta endure awhile more b4 i can finally enjoy my long awaited holidays which will be quite well spent wif many activities planned... (: but tis also means tat there will be a big hole in my pocket... XP

When things change, people change. There’s a point in life where you get tired of chasing everyone trying to fix things, but it’s not giving up, you’ve got to do what’s right for you, even if it hurts.

2009-12-08T21:45:00.003+08:00

so its MST week n its damn boring...n its killing me...i hav nth much to blog becuz i m jus doing mundane things everyday like studying at mac[which i presume is more productive than studying at home since i will be stuck to de com once i come back...lolx...] n aft tat go home continue studying n then sleep then go for exams...n today i had de 4th meal at mac for tis week...hahs...fen! lets see how many meals can we eat for tis entire week...LOL...
de next few days till fri will still be exams n sat will be working till evening n leaving for genting at night! cant wait...cuz tis trip came jus at de right point of time... (:
okays then...back to mugging for now... ):

Maybe if I weren’t so good at pretending to be happy, I might learn to actually be happy.

2009-12-07T20:30:00.001+08:00

Everyone has those people you know? The ones who are there for them through it all. Through every single up and down of your life. They are always right there, riding the coaster with you, squeezing your hand tight on all the biggest, scariest hills telling you, “You’ll be okay, you’ll make it through, you can do this.” You know that they will never hop off the coaster at a stopping point to find an easier ride; they will stick with you because they want to. You trust these people immensely and they trust you too. These people, they complete you, they bring the biggest smile to your face and make your life worth living. You know that they will always be there for you, no matter what, twenty-four hours a day, seven days a week, and all three hundred sixty-five days of the year. You spend each day trying to think of some way, any way, to repay them, to help them understand what they have done for you, but always come up short. You simply tell them thank you, hoping that will be enough, but apologizing when you realize it isn’t. They, though, find it enough for you to be happy and knowing that your coaster has slowed down for now. And as your coaster slowly picks up the pace once again, you know these people are still there, ready to support you and squeeze your hand when you, once more, find yourself riding it out on those hills. And even if, over time, you find yourself apart from these people, you are never truly apart, maybe by the standard definition, but truly you aren’t. Near or far, far or near, these are the people that will always love you and they’ll never leave you.

2009-12-04T21:50:00.004+08:00

today was a day out wif de 5 girls in my class n we had a good time shopping n eating...when de initial plan was to study aft de meal at lai lai...hahs...was not supposed to spend since i had been spending like a lot in jus 2 weeks...still i could not resist temptations n spent 5bucks on accesories...but at least it made me feel so so so much better now...
aftwhich was meeting up wif mummy n bought dinner home...n i finally got de long awaited pay for last month's work... (: shall save it up first n start studying for my mst...

The nice part about being a pessimist is that you are constantly being either proven right or pleasantly surprised.

2009-12-03T23:38:00.008+08:00

today can be considered de best day i had for tis screwed up week...all thanks to my dearest babe n xf...♥ u guys... (: i had a rather fun time...with all de constant laughing n 'embarrassments' which xf brought us...hahs...days r definitely better wif them ard...

Sometimes when our friends ask us if we’re okay, we tend to lie, because we know that telling them the whole story is just going to break our heart once more. So we might as well just lie and say we’re fine.

2009-12-01T17:13:00.000+08:00

Sometimes, no matter how long or how hard you’ve loved someone, they’ll never love you back.
And it’s sad, but no matter how much it hurts, you have to move on and be okay with that.

2009-11-29T23:29:00.000+08:00

Do your heart a favour and just turn around and leave. It may not be what you think you want, but it's what you need.
You need to let go.

2009-11-27T18:49:00.001+08:00

我想我没那么坚强
每个女孩其实一样
渴望着爱情的好
渴望被拥抱
却都害怕爱让人受伤